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I've realized I've been playing Apples and Oranges with my goals versus my successes.
Okay, let me put that another way
'Success' is the horizon. Always moving, always out of reach. It's good to keep striving. But making that goal is impossible. That doesn't make it not worth the effort. You have to also keep an eye on where you've been, how you've grown in the meantime.
For a long time I've looked at my 'successes' as luck, providence, gifts.
I was also looking at what i considered 'success' and never felt like I was successful.
My math was off: everything I have done, have achieved, have earned, wasn't getting equal weight against the value assigned to 'what i could have done'
And that's self-defeating.
It's time to stop that.
In gamer terms: remember all the XPs you've earned, when you look in dismay at what you feel like you _should_ have.
Okay, let me put that another way
'Success' is the horizon. Always moving, always out of reach. It's good to keep striving. But making that goal is impossible. That doesn't make it not worth the effort. You have to also keep an eye on where you've been, how you've grown in the meantime.
For a long time I've looked at my 'successes' as luck, providence, gifts.
I was also looking at what i considered 'success' and never felt like I was successful.
My math was off: everything I have done, have achieved, have earned, wasn't getting equal weight against the value assigned to 'what i could have done'
And that's self-defeating.
It's time to stop that.
In gamer terms: remember all the XPs you've earned, when you look in dismay at what you feel like you _should_ have.
